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9:07am on bed

 Good morning everyone. I am Chinmoy Choudhury. Going to take my life in a very conscious state. I have been struggling with extreme stress, anxiety and depression. Now I have something to study infact today I had an important class but due to the problems like my past. Doesn't allow me to sit comfortably.  I consciously understand that if I had not came home after I left the home. Or else I haven't surrendered myself I maybe in happy state. And sure that my family would have been able to come out of grief in those years.  I know a few years will be very much difficult for them. But I wish them better recovery. Also if I stay with them I being the problem. Who always fight with them says bad words, blame others etc etc.  Oh I also want to say that I hate myself.  And I will be writing a special notes for my mother. Please allow her to read at the blogspot. And whatever my father says about me is taken to considered as truth. My last wish :  1. If somehow my...
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THE LAST...

Thanks everyone for being the part of my so called wonderful journey. Today,(5th August 2020) I decided to leave this world as I think myself to be a useless person in the world. I can't be able to become a good son, brother, friend, grandson. I know everyone loves me, that's fine. But you all must know that you can't do anything for me, rather then dropping some eye drops. This is not for any specified person as I know that everyone loves me. I want to leave the world as I can't able to fight with anyone. And I also know that I am suffering from a desease for couple of years and mental illness along with a eye which is almost a useless. I don't want to be the burden for my family and I think I am creating problem for my.... .  Here I also want to inform that I wanted to commit suicide when I will able to give all the money back to my father. I thought that I would be able to make money that will cover up my debit. But slowly I realised that it's a very huge amo...
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